How they come, what they say, what they think – triggering me, still has something raise in me. It is at this point, I can pray for self forgiveness. The Devil, the world, does not want me to let go, it wants me to stay in it, be dependent on it, be glued to remember it. Even then, I can still let go, and put my heart in a place without suffering.
I can make a joke.
I can say thank you.
I can spin it upside down.
I can harvest the seed in my heart – for the new beginning.
They will not do to me, what I have not done to them.
Again – They (others) will not do to be (trigger me, or even treat me good), what I have not done to them (they are a mirror).
Be mildly amused with the parts I dislike.
Then it will stop coming. Amusement with me – by the world, will take place.
The law of attraction is not here for me to meddle, it is to reflect who I am now. What I see is because I attracted it, and it erodes me through forgiveness. During this, I must take my ‘leave’, not to run, but to let go. My art, my environment, my vibration must change. I must raise it.
How?
Go outside the box again. I can invite them to something better, healthier. I don’t want chaos in me.
Lovingly, take my leave. My vibrational leave, say it – “Hey, I appreciate you raising this. In this moment I am willing to let it go. I see the moment as one that is rewarding, and fulfilling. ” Or I can say “Everything I need in this moment, to thrive, is here now.”
Am I willing to be forgiven for all of my past? By God. He already did, that is why I am aware.
When I fully receive this forgiveness I am forgiveness.
Self judgement, self forgiveness are the only two things mattering.
Unworthiness and shame is different.
Grace is not earnt by merit… saying I am not ‘worthy’ doesn’t mean I am being shamed by God.
You just cannot meet the grace of God without letting go and letting God in.
Mercy, willingness to be forgiveness for all, and in this, I am forgiven.
“Me and my” is vanquished and surrendered.
April 20-24, this week, the Devil couldn’t last beyond 4 days of harassment. Worldly convolution.
I am forgiven, and am emptying. It is a process to surrender to ‘the world’ which I do not need. I don’t need anything.
Fuck it all! 😉
